3 More High School Wake Ups

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So that was a fun morning assembly. Goodness I can’t wait to get out of this damn school. I suppose the silver lining is that that was the very last assembly with my HOY I’ll ever have… except for the graduation assembly we have on Friday that I’ll be leaving early from for rehearsals.

Every damn week he does the countdown.

Today he FINALLY brought up Prom and was like: “oh hey lol there’s a prom email going out tonight lol yeah do the form and get the cheque and bring it in tomorrow or else lol”. I want to throttle him.

Then he went on to talk about Muck Up Day and how it shouldn’t be called “Muck Up” Day and that we’re essentially getting rid of it thanks to last year’s cohort. Which is great. Not. One by one they’re whittling away our “Sixth Form Privileges”.

We have a fire drill during P2 so that should be interesting… today is pretty full on actually…

P1- Normal
P2- Fire drill
Break- Ladakh meeting + See HOY about acapella performance on Friday
P3- Concert rehearsals
P4- Normal (ughhhh it’s English… might try to skip it… but he has DEFINITELY seen me in school so I’ll need to be very careful about how I do this…)
Lunch- Choir rehersals
P5- Normal
P6- Normal (but I have an essay due in that I haven’t done, whoops)
Biology Tuition
Maths Tuition

And then I get to stop and breathe and TRY to get an English essay done for tomorrow. IBFML. No, I am the main reason I’m in this shitty position. I don’t know how to get my act together… I’ll sort it out somehow.

Whatever.

You guys were a bit funny yesterday, the searches that got you here were quite nice!

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All except the marshmallow death one were quite sweet! 😛

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A Surplus of Bad Moods

A Surplus of Bad Moods

So I’ve had a lovely day today! I really have! I went home yesterday and had dinner with the fam and said bye to dad. Then I was invited out with Pheebers to buy her prom dress with her and look around for one for me…

…AND WE FOUND ONE!

I really like it (dare I say love it? :P) and I want to try it on again and show some more people because it’s nearly perfect (far more perfect than I’m expecting to find anywhere else).

Pheebers slept over last night and we watched “Wreck it Ralph” (FINALLY) and ordered McDonalds and all sorts of fun holiday stuff. We wound up going to bed at 3:40am-ish. Woke up at 10 or 11-ish and hung around all day just watching old music videos (I genuinely didn’t realise I knew so many Village People songs!).

At 3:30pm we called taxis and I headed to Chimmercharlie’s to crash her Biology tuition again and Pheebers went home. The tuition went really well! When it finished Chimmercharlie invited me to come out to dinner with her and Manders after my Maths tuition ended and I accepted.

Maths tuition came and went (ugh) and as I was saying goodbye to my tutor the home phone rings. This is where the day/night turns sour.

My mum’s been in Australia for the last week and a bit trying to find a house for when we move home in nearly 3 months. So far it’s been unsuccessful. Really unsuccessful. Everyone is stressing about it. She called earlier tonight while I was in the middle of tuition and my helper told her I’d gone out last night (neglected to mention I’d come home at a decent hour) and then that I was planning to go out for dinner after tuition. Mum- in the bad place that she is in- calls me the second my tuition ends SPECIFICALLY to take out her bad mood on me.

Seriously. Hormonal teenage girl. Maths tuition. Exams fast approaching. Phone call from a stressed out mother. Does she really think I’ll be all sunshine and buttercups on this end of the line?

She picked a fight. Naturally.

So here I am. No dinner. No food in the house FOR dinner (because I hadn’t asked my helper to prepare anything- *first world problems*) because I thought I’d be going OUT for dinner. AAAAND in a bad mood.

Would it KILL my mother to just CHILL THE FUCK OUT!?

I’m 18 for crying out loud! A fact she only thinks to acknowledge when it suits her best. Right now? Nope. Therefore I am a child and I need to do as she says. I can’t go out and meet my friends for dinner and see my dress- heaven forbid I should leave the house after 9pm! In SINGAPORE! Possibly the safest place ON EARTH!

GRRRAHHH!!!!!!!

It’s just so damn FRUSTRATING! I get that she’s stressed out and upset. I GET that. I really, REALLY do! But would it KILL her to just be nice on the phone? I was! I tried to be understanding and just say “ok- I won’t go” but she kept PUSHING it and so I started defending myself and it escalated into her saying: “I think I’ll come home tomorrow if you’re going to be immature”.

**TEARS OUT HAIR**

I really aguishfljgsnkbfd. I just want dinner. And friends. And a prom dress. And to not worry about exams. And have a house in Australia already. And not be a girl.

So I’ve surrendered. I’m sitting ALONE and with no food, watching “Buffy Season 4” because I just give up. I should be out with my friends who have WAITED UNTIL 9PM JUST SO I CAN EAT WITH THEM, but no. I’m sat at home because my mother is in such a bad mood that she has to go and yell at someone about it.

That’s what she does best. Picks fights and then acts like the victim. UGHHHHHHH!!!

Sometimes I really just can’t wait to move out already. In some respects it’ll just be so much friggin’ easier. If this is what she’s going to be like after I graduate then I quit. I’ll move in with someone else. I swear I will. I don’t understand why she can’t just make up her damn mind- am I child or an adult. Pick one and stick with it. Jeez.

I’m going to watch Buffy now and try to chill. Night all.

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Why Is It Thursday Already

Why Is It Thursday Already

Finished “Buffy” Season 3! YAY! Got to bed at 2:30am, not too shabby!

It’s THURSDAY D:
Noooo, nearly half the break is gone *sobs*
I really need to get my act together… I’ll print out some past papers for Bio (I already have a stack for Chem…) and muddle through them… I really need to start solidifying my knowledge of the subject considering the fact that I’ve spent 2 years ignoring it completely. If I come out of this with more than a 5, I’ll be impressed with myself.

Just about to head into school so there really isn’t much to say.

Tonight I’m sleeping at a friend’s house- Staples (my Maths Buddy!), so I’ll try my best to post again when I’m there but I can’t make any promises.

Hope you all have a great day! 🙂

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Going Through the Motions

Going Through the Motions

6 days left of school.

Just did (read: failed) my Chem test. Oh well, haha, I didn’t revise. I really need to start. Option B is a bit annoying in that it looks familiar (because of Bio) but then… it’s not. Haha.

Oh well. I’ll just go through the test open book tomorrow.

It’s Book Day tomorrow! Have to come in dressed as Goldilocks. Haven’t even started getting the outfit together so tonight is going to be interesting… :/

What else? I’m in Maths… have English next… then we have our “Year 13” Graduation photo (we stand in the form of a “13” and get a photo. It’s tradition. After that it’s acapella rehearsal, I’ve tried to make it compulsory today… we’ll see how that goes!

That’s about it. Every so often I have to stop myself from thinking too much about the fact that I only have ~21 lessons left in this place. Or from thinking about Jared Padalecki. I’m looking forwards to tomorrow. I know my heart is about to be shattered into a million pieces… I still want to do it. Watch it all. Get Season 2 under my belt. I want to be a good fangirl and Supernaturalist.

Ugh. I hate IB.

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9 Days More…

9 Days More...

Have you guessed yet? Yup, it’s another Mufti at my school. I have 2 more in the time I have left at my school.

I finish schooling here **forever** in 9 days. That’s it. In 9 days I leave the school premises and NEVER have to come back for a lesson ever again.

Ever.

I feel sick to my stomach and light as a feather.

I can’t believe I’m going to be closing this chapter of my life. As much as I hate certain teachers… I’ve had possibly the best 14 years of my life here- and now it’s all ending.

It’s a nervous, jittery feeling. The thought of flying the coup. Actually *getting out*. Being an adult.

We just had an assembly about finances (in the UK… but the thought of money management alone has my inner child running and screaming in the other direction). I can hardly keep within my pocket money allowance. How the hell am I going to be able to handle University money?

I’m in English… have to do an essay by the end of the lesson so I need to get to work now. I’d planned to write more in my 3rd period free… but no, my Maths teacher is demanding we come in for an extra lesson. It’s either 3rd or 6th… I think I might go in for 6th. I’ll be at school anyway…

It’s so strange to sit in these classrooms and know my days are numbered. I feel like one of the barricade boys in ‘Les Mis’, haha.

Part of me can’t wait until the day before the last day so that I can sing “One Day More” at the top of my lungs (all the parts. In tune. In character). Haha!

Last night I lay on my bed talking to Chimmercharlie for about half an hour on the phone. Except neither of us were using our hands. I was lying on my bed with my phone lying on my face. She was lying *on* her phone. We’ve officially reached *that* age. You know, where everything is just too much so you act like a potato.

So yeah, better get back to the essay.

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Well That Was a Waste of Time…

Well That Was a Waste of Time...

So I may have told you before that I am Chairwoman of my school’s Sports Council (I’m pretty sure I’ve whinged about the assembly I had to give a speech at…).

Anyway, today was the first meeting back since Christmas (whoops, lol) and I emailed everyone and updated the Facebook group and all that blah… only 3 girls showed up. Not even the newbies showed up. I’ve had 3 people sign up since the assemblies and not one of them showed up today.

*Sigh*

Whatever, we had nothing to talk about anyway. We got through the two things that the Head of P.E. told us to discuss and then I dismissed them after 10 minutes. So now I have half an hour of free time before another dreaded English lesson.

Meh. At least my dizziness has gone away. Only have to get through English and Maths then I can do work until Tuition tonight then I might get an early night… I’m not sure yet 😛

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Disney in Chemistry

Disney in Chemistry

So I look a bit better than I did this morning thankfully.

I’m in Chemistry now (it’s nearly finished), which means that I’m almost halfway through my school day right now! 😀

Getting that essay in has really calmed me down.

ALSO there’s good things happening at home. I’m not really going to go into specifics about this one, but basically there were lots of complications about moving to Australia and as of yesterday everything has taken a VERY positive turn for the better.

It is such a huge weight off the family. I’ve been so shitty with people because home has been so stressful (on top of IB) and I know it isn’t fair to them to have to put up with me… but most of them do. Ever since hearing the good news the whole atmosphere at home has improved.

Part of me thinks that either Mr. Asshole didn’t send the ISAMS or my parents haven’t gotten the email OR they’re not going to talk to me about it (with any luck it’s the first one…)

Only Maths and English left to go. I’m tired but I’m not in a bad mood or suffering any headaches or whatnot (well, maybe a little dizzy…).

The home situation should really help with the amount of stress I’m dealing with… now all I have to worry about is learning my IB stuff.

There are 16 days left of school.
There are 42 days left until IB exams.
There are 3 months until I graduate and leave this place in the dust.

The notion is strange, liberating, terrifying, weird, inconceivable, unfathomable, unsettling……. you get the idea.

Right now I’m rocking out to my Disney song collection. I think that I relate most to Rapunzel’s “When Will My Life Begin” at the moment. I just want to start learning about what I love instead of furtively sneaking looks at books and newspaper snippets whenever my face isn’t smashed in IB textbooks and past papers.

Not long now until freedom and I simply can’t wait.

The speech I gave the other night (I’m working on finding the video to upload to you all) has received a lot of praise. I’m so happy I got the chance to do it, I really can’t express just how much I love Ancient Greece. University is going to be amazing and the course I will study will feed my passion for the civilisation, I just know it!

Soon! But not now. I have to do well in the exams. I have to suffer the darkest part of the night before I can reap the rewards and enjoy the beauty of the morning.

Not much left until I can officially say I’m done with my school and done with IB. Oh! The thought gives me flutters! 😀

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